So much going on in the world today, events are shifting and changing daily that we as a human race must adapt to. Personally, I think these will and should be longstanding adaptations in many areas of our lives. The cleanliness, the store hours shifting, seniors having more access to services and separate times, more telecommuting options for those who choose to and smaller classroom sizes when we are able to return to some normalcy. What will that normalcy look like and can it be done?
Myself I fought for change in the early part of fall 2019 so I know it can be done- in every area of my life. To finally succeed in that fight, I had to surrender what I thought my life was going to look like. That surrender took many months for the most part, but I was willing. Change does not happen overnight however and I am grateful for the time and effort I made and continue to make in myself to put those changes into action. It takes courage to change. To see you are no longer happy with where you are at and to understand only you are responsible for the outcomes of your life. The work and determination to continue on when you, at times, only want to ball up and cry. I did that too.
The biggest change I chose to make was in my career, it was no longer serving me. I have goals, hopes and dreams that I strive for in every area of my life that I will let no one crush-ever. So, when I saw that I had pretty much reached a plateau at the organization I was in I knew it was time to go. I could see the writing on the wall. The writing was mainly my own- I was getting tired, tired of social media all together. My career had afforded me the opportunity to grow and accomplish so much with so many different organizations in California including our youth in schools, that was may lifeline that kept me going. The social media aspect of my 9 to 5 was draining in the end and what I loved in the beginning.
Running Twitter, Instagram and of course 5 different Facebook pages under the guise of “other duties as required” for my non-profit was spilling into my everyday life and I was done with it. I was able to make a career move with much perseverance that took many months to happen on March 16, 2020. I am grateful. Grateful that I kept going, kept writing applications, kept interviewing- even when there were those people who said it could not be done. That maybe I should set my aspirations on a lower level- that I just could not come in at the level for which I was reaching. I am so glad I kept reaching, I will never stop reaching.
A funny, not so funny thing happened on that first day of work, we were all sent home to telework from home with as of yet- no end in sight. Now since my job entails traveling 30% up and down the state of California, I was ready to go home and work from the gate- I just had no clue what I was doing yet. It was actually pretty nice knowing on that first day of work when I logged into my new laptop that they were waiting for me. I had IT sending me emails weeks earlier than my actual start date with instructions for my new, brand new, gear welcoming me as well as HR and just about everyone else in the organization. So off I went to work from home- we all did.
The official shelter in place happened on May 19, 2020 and the world as many of us knew it changed. I had taken much pride and happiness deleting myself from running all those social media pages I worked for in my last organization- I had even created many of them. I relinquished my Admin role and removed my entire existence from their life, I did not even want to know what was going on with them any further. I did that with much of my past life, it no longer serves me.
So here I am once again fighting for what I no longer want- to be tied to social media or a phone. Our society, my society that I participate in life in, moved to Zoom, WebEx, Adobe Connect, Slack and every webinar I can be volun-told to attend. Now most of that is for my new 9 to 5 career so something has got to give, I chose Facebook once again. The deletion of those pesky Facebook friends I do not really know or have not communicated with since the “add’ shall I say began when the shelter in place began- it was something to do. Now the Facebook removal from my phone had to happen as well- I kept messenger though; it keeps me connected to those I love in a certain kind of way, not to mention my love for Instagram- my personal Instagram, that I will keep.
I am Zoomed out and Facebooked out. I like the life I have without the outside influences. The chickens, the big fat 20lb cat Hermes, Macey the beautiful new addition to my life- she’s and Australian Heeler who came attached to a new relationship that blindsided me so much I almost couldn’t catch my breath. I had to become willing to surrender everything of what I thought my life would be and just be. I did and I do- nothing is promised. Did I mention the kid is home? The beautiful mind that is attached to the Autistic daughter who will be turning 19 soon is home until fall when she returns to college life- if it opens that is. Online classes are not compatible for her and that is OK- they were not compatible for many. So, for now I will focus on the new career, learning every aspect of the ins and outs and passing that six month probation period and home with him, with us- it’s working. I fought for every bit of this life I have today- this blessed life with this new career and this new me. When I stopped fighting for the old life and completely surrendered amazing things happened, I just kept growing – I will continue to keep growing. This life takes deliberate actions of self-love to transform ourselves and our old habits- I love my life.
The Chicken Lady